emotionally-independence

In the end didnt go school. But i did have hokkien mee at my house downstair kopitiam.
Tomorrow I AM SO GOING TO SCHOOL.  ;0
And eat canteen 3 hokkien mee. Canteen 3 hokkien mee just.. taste so simple, yet it is so tasty.

Maybe because its cook sincerely by 2 old folks.

I spent 4 hours using coral painter to digitalize my sketch of this:

And i totally forgotten how to use coral painter.. since i only use it twice before. And i am too lazy to dig out the box and search for the manual.

So after 4 hours…. i end up with a VE-RY UG-GLY digitalize version which i am too ashamed to even save the work.
The feeling is sooo sian when u realize u didnt accomplish anything after spenting 4 fucking hours on something.

I told yapmengrong about it when we were on the phone.

Me: “fuck la. damn sian. i spent 4 hours and the result is like… shit.”

Me: “I feel so useless now. damn sian. maybe i am not cut out for this”

YMR: “nooo.. i love u baby”

Me: “but the thing is i am feeling damn sian..”

YMR: “go and bath lor.. bath already will feel better, den go and do something else”

Me: “ya.. maybe i shall read some magazine”

I always think that i am emotionally-independence.

Whenever i am upset, i “decode” the problem first to calm down and analyze it. I wont just go around making phone calls to girlfriend and complain first. Okay, maybe the complain part comes in later when i see them at gatherings.

But hey, sometimes the situation hit u badly and you cant think straight, there got to be someone there to tell you,
“Hey go and have a hot nice long bath and you will feel better”

After bathing, i feel better. Sort out my thinking when i was bathing. So i decided to blog an entry about today.
Anyway, one of my resolution for this year is to blog as frequently as possible.
Most of the time, i am just plain lazy to type so much words.

OKAY!!

Tomorrow i am going to try coloring the sketch with traditional medium; color pencil and black ink marker of various thickness.
I already plan the color scheme for it. Blue, Yellow and Red.

For Tomorrow, i will succeed. *(CONFIDENT SMILE)

I AM SO GOING TO SCHOOL

I am so going to school (swensen) to eat hokkien mee!!!

Its been like super duper donkey years since i eat hokkien mee at canteen 3 eh.

SO I AM LOOKING FORWARD TO SCHOOL.Ohhwoo~ I have got some motivation to get my ass out of the seat now.

Today i dream of my grandfather.
He was on the hospital bed, and was telling me he wanted to get “bury” after he die.
Then i thinking in my dream.. “huhhh, but we already cremate you”. So i told him…

“Bury very troublesome and its very expensive.”

Next thing i know, i was thinking in my dream again. How come my grandpa can hear me while i’m talking so softly.
He is hard on his hearing for both ears when he was alive.

So it must be true. When you are died, you are cure of what you are suffering in your present life.

Just when i wanted to get some 4D numbers from him..
I woke up.
My elder sister wake me up, asking me to help her button up her dress.

Okay super duper hungry now.

Time to go school. =)=)=)